Its either black or white! Hmm...well i choose grey...

The world is a beautiful place full of beautiful things waiting to be discovered, says the optimist. The world is a place full of evil things waiting to jump and take advantage of you says the pesimist. People are either a pesimist or a optimist, well I think that’s a lie. I’ve been told I’m a pesimist that I think of the glass as half empty, because I can see the bad in the world. But i can see the good too. I wouldnt say the glass is half empty or half full, I’d just say that its a glass with some water in it. That’s how I also see the world.....for how it is. I dont only see the good things but the bad too. I try to see and understand everything, for what it is, not how I want it to be and I dont dwell on the bad things. Perhaps this is why most people have problems. People that would be called optimists try to look on the bright side and only pick out the good things in life, these people have problems with reality because when something bad happens to them thier entire state of mind is in tumoil. When pesimists have good expiriences they feel awkward and wonder that there might be good things in the world. But thier mind state convinces them that they are wrong and they miss out on an opputunity to love life be be happy. So yes some people are pesimists and some are optimists but some people are neither. Those are the people with the healthiest minds because when disaster strikes them, they realize there are beautiful things in the world and they just need to be sought out. And when great things happen then they realize they shouldnt take it for granted because bad things can happen..... I am not a pesimist nor a optimist I’m in between. I have a healthy mind for the fact that I came up with these thoughts.

Love yourself, life, and the little things....

LOVE YOURSELF!Because were born with one body so u might as well learn to love it, you cant trade it, your pretty much stuck so instead of wishing it looked a certain way.... dont! Take a moment and apreciate it and all it does for you. Everyone is beautiful in some way, inside or out. beauty on the outside will never be worth anything....due to the fact that beauty fades, and intellect and wisdom are forever. I watch people all the time do things to thier bodies to make them feel better.....better about themselves.....and better about thier lives. It just makes you feel good for an hour or so and then you feel even worse that you did what u did to feel better anyway. You may think that your making yourself better.....but your really phycologically fucking your brain up. GUYS! I LOVE YOU AND I WATCH YOU TRY TO HELP YOURSELVES BUT YOUR REALLY JUST MAKING THINGS WORSE! THIS INPARTICULAR IS DIRECTED TOWARDS MY FRIENDS THAT STARTED OUT PARTYING WITH LED TO DRINKING, WHICH LED TO SMOKING, WHICH LED TO BEING ADDICTED TO EITHER THE PARTY SCENE OR THE SUBSTANCES. ...........i used to do it too....and still do once in a while....but i havent in a very long time....im learning to say no.

LOVE OTHERS! If we put all our time and effort into ourselves who are we helping? No one....if all we care about is ourselves then no body will love us and we will grow old and die alone. I know for a fact that no one on earth wants to die alone.

LOVE THE LITTLE THINGS! You know what im talking about! A kiss on the cheek .....or hand picked flowers(or weeds) ......or a comforting hug......or even a simple smile from a stranger. every little thing matters....because when u gather them all up they make bigger and better things.

LOVE YOUR LIFE!!! You only get one life, one body, one family, one chance to be a kid, to be a teenager, and an adult, one chance to make everyone and everything around you better. No body should ever feel unhappy. i realize that there is so much evil in the world and it gets worse everyday.... but because of this evil, people come together and try to make the world better. There are so many wonderful things in the world. One must seek them out, through quotes and smiles and laughter and friendships and pure joy of kindness. I was in the car today feeling pretty lethargic and unresponsive and i looked over into ther car next to me and this lady smiled at me and was so happy and u could tell her and her friend were sharing a moment or pure happiness. Thier mood was so addictive and powerful that for the next half hour i couldnt stop smiling. That stranger made my day! and all it took was a smile! Im sure little things like that, if done often, would trigger more and more little wonders and joys that like i said above would create bigger and better things, that would probably create a peacful atmosphere in alot of people which could make the world, perhaps a little better?-just a little dream of mine that the world might get better..............EVERYTHING EVER DONE STARTED OUT AS EITHER A WISH, A DREAM, OR A THOUGHT...........

i wrote this summer of 2006 at age 15

As we go through life we face oh so many obstacles. Some of us are strong based on our up bringing, and some of us are not and those are the ones who cant face the problem so they let it destroy them and everyone that ever loved them has to suffer also. Its funny you see how one person can mean so much to so many different people and never know it! I believe that there are two different ways to show that you love someone. ONE:where you tell them over a period of time. And TWO: where little things you do show your love, and or affection for the other person. What is it that makes living beings attract eachother? Some kind of magic. . .i guess. . .really think about it when you love someone not for thier personality or looks, but thier whole as a person. To me this magic substance, spirit, or feeling is the most amazing thing that exsists, whether its your family, friends, or signifagant other. . . right now someone in your life is your world, your reason for living, your all. When people lose that it somtimes makes them stronger, and again for those less fortunate, really depressed, and weak they will shut themselves out from the world and somtime take thier own lives. This is the world we live in, a world where there is no reset button, what happens, happens and you can never take anything back.

"Words once spoken may never be recalled"

Watch your life carfully and never regret, just learn and be happy you were blessed with a situation to become stronger from. . . .my favorite motto goes:

"everything happens for a reason"